Baby Hare's Due Date 4/30/12

Today was Baby Hare's due date.  While he did not make his appearance (or at least hasn't as of 8:00 p.m.), I still enjoyed the day.  Adam and I had a late night at my parents' house last night watching the Nashville Predators play hockey.  Adam is a big hockey fan, and he plays goalie for the adult league in a nearby town.  So this morning we let ourselves sleep in late....really late....like 11:30 a.m. late.  (Adam is on vacation from work right now.)  I usually hate sleeping in, but I know days like this won't happen again for a while.  So we slept in and then just enjoyed a leisurely morning/early afternoon snuggling and hanging out in our pajamas.  Adam fixed us biscuits with bacon.  I ate a couple of my biscuits with peanut butter and syrup, a treat I grew up with.  Adam ate a couple of his with apple butter, one of his favorites.

This afternoon we went to the Chickamauga Battlefield Park.  Despite the heat, we had a vigorous walk for about an hour.  I walked as fast as I could, which was only so fast given my swollen ankles and a cramp in my right calf muscle.  I even managed to jog a few times for a fair distance!  I was proud of myself.  I was hoping it might get labor started, but even if it doesn't, it was good for me.  After we walked and jogged, we climbed Wilder Tower.  My legs felt like jelly by the time I got to the bottom. 

 

Heidi went with us.  She didn't climb the tower.  (Adam and I had to take turns climbing.)  We weren't sure if pets were allowed in tower, plus Heidi is not the most graceful dog ever.  She would be sure to miss a step or two in the dark parts.  She drowned herself in water when we got back to the truck. 

Don't worry, we didn't drink after her. :)  We drank from our jumbo water jug.  On the way home we picked up some Captain D's for dinner.  Adam loves Captain D's.  He said it makes him feel like he's on vacation at the beach.  So we pretended that we were. :)  Tonight we are recovering from our workout and just hanging out together.

I have been trying to soak up every last second with Adam.  I know he's not going anywhere, but it will only be the 2 of us for just a little bit longer.  I love him so much, and I am excited/nervous/scared about this new chapter we are about to begin.  I know he will be a wonderful dad.  I can't wait to see him in that role.  It's just really scary going into the unknown.  Sometimes I feel unqualified for motherhood.  I mean, my mom is a mom.  Other women are moms.  I'm not a mom.  I am still a girl.  Am I even a woman?  Haha.  Sometimes I feel like I'm still just out of high school.  I guess you can tell the nerves are setting in.  I cry pretty much every day now whether it be about anxiety about parenting, childbirth, our future unknown life, my rash, hormones, etc.  I don't handle big change very well.  Haha.  I'm always fine after the change, it's just leading up to it, that I tend to freak out a little bit.  But I have been praying that God will be with me and will give me strength to endure childbirth and to step into my new role is a mother.  Adam has been great and has done his best to comfort me.  I'm sure my hormones and emotions are a mystery to him, but he has tried his best to be very understanding.  I love him and appreciate him so much.

I'm gonna go enjoy the evening and do some relaxing.  I hope y'all had a wonderful day.  Please pray that if it is God's will, our baby will come on his own.  Otherwise, he will be born Thursday, which is fine too.  I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow, so I will probably update after that.  Thursday is the National Day of Prayer, so that wouldn't be such a bad birthday to have. :)  Have a great night. :)